More fragile

I think i have never given that much attention to myself. Food, I have to watch of course like all of us but eating bite size, texture, wow!!! I am a meat eater and i love salads and i am told to go mushy I usually devour and eat quickly now i have to chew so much that halfway my plate i can fall asleep . Exercises, they are demanding if not done the body tells and what ever i do it says “you did not do your exercise”. Sleep , so much I was a 6hrs a night in bed at midnight up at 6am most of my life.

I think I am realising that i do love myself because i care a lot suddenly. I am leaving behind very crunchy stuff out but I like so much the noise it makes. I drink that awful stuff thick and goo like that taste so awful and texture wise is so far from anything drinkable. BBQ grilled steak and i like it almost raw! Hello over cook mushy vegetables yark !

I read the info ,I do the exercises, drink that stuff, do research get involved with group recovery FB, my life is definitely worth living to put up with all that … let us find what is worth to fight so much so hard.