Is too much acceptance a bad thing?

'to do something' :) I set up sooo many projects, now if I can get 1 or 2 a day done I'm happy with that. Trying to build a simple veranda railing the other day, I ended calling it a day at 5pm, laughing. I had accomplished zero work, a few screw holes, not much else. theres always tomorrow. 

In February 2014 I had a minor stroke due to a brain tumor one specialist says (removed and not cancerous - woohoo), the other specialist says I may have Cadasil - any way lost the use of my right arm only.  I got feeling back a couple of days later, went to some rehab sessions, practise, practise, practise.  I probably got about 85% usage back so far, mainly hand that lets me down so I nicknamed the hand "Raggedy Ann" . Boy could she tell you some funny stories...

I know what has happened but I don't accept it.  When something goes wrong (drop something etc) I just blame it on a Raggedy Ann moment, laugh and tell her to get her shit together and get on with it.  Sure I get angry, frustrated but I got angry and frustrated before the stroke as well (maybe a little quicker now)

I accept that it is taking longer than I thought it would but you get that.  I don't know if I will ever get to 100%, frankly it doesn't bother me if I don't but I am sure gonna keep trying.  

I read a book called ' The Brain that changes itself ' not long after meeting Raggedy Ann - one chapter in particular was about Strokes - Good read. Tried his techniques - only on the weekends though.  I run a business from home during the week so I did not want to be known as the crazy oven mitt lady - helped quite a bit and we had some really good laughs, at my expense of course.

Any way I have blah-blahed enough. 

Hugs to you all and keep on keeping on !!

My stroke in December 2014 completely stuffed up my life. There are lots of minor things it did to me but the major ones were firstly my right leg, which no longer woud be able to support me standing in a river doing fly fishing. Then the loss of voice just when I'd started getting involved in public speaking. Then worst of all, the loss of any control over my right hand when my major hobbies are playing guitar and keyboards.

Too bad about the fishing, I didn't like eating trout particularily so I waved that away.

I work continually on my voice, talking to anyone who will listen. I read daily aloud to my wife.

The hand was a different story and I started continual exercising of it. I would be working on it for about six hours a day. Within a month I could touch my fingertips with my thumb. After two months I could button up my shirt (about thirty minutes). About this time  I had a tentative poke at the keyboard.

I could not depress a single note.

I could not hold a plectrum for longer than five seconds.

I built about 20 different types of plectrum to try and improve my grasp. The final one was applying double sided sellotape to both sides. This enabled me to hold and control the plectrum but allowed me to put it down when finished. Now in my seventh month I am still using this system.

I play both instruments daily, not for long, I have a short tolerance span. I also have had to virtually relearn how to read music. I am not ready to face an audience yet but occasionally I play something and think to myself...."Hey, that wasn't Bad!"

I am 85 years young.

Deigh