Hi there,
Waiting to hear about the outcomes of tests, waiting to be given the opportunity to go to re-hab for help to walk. A lot of waiting and while you are waiting how are you feeling? Not just about your stroke, but about the combination of everything that this experience is bringing up for you?
For me, keeping track in my mind (I had no way of communicating after my stroke) was important to me as a way of bringing my whole self into each new day. I needed to be seen as a whole person, not just an object in the bed who needed ob's and personal care.
Maybe recording, journaling in hand written form which allows you to be really free about what you are thinking might be of comfort.
Comfort is important in times of uncertainty. Not knowing what to expect can be really hard as you no doubt already know :-)
I had my stroke at 22 years old and I turn 50 next month. Life is good and it has been a lot of work, learning, adjusting and never ending hope to get me to where I am today.
Practical things like -
1. What was your stroke called and where in the brain was it. (Something to record and refer back to as timed goes on when needed)
2. How you are being included in the discussion of what will happen once you are in rehab
3. Keeping track of discussions, information and decisions made about you by others. Which includes any new medication needed.
And please excuse my lack of knowledge about cystic fibrosis, so I would want to know, that the opportunity to meet ongoing needs for cystic fibrosis will be taken into consideration at every step of the way.
And yes as Toni has mentioned above - be kind to yourself. There are so many people with lived experience of stroke who would be sending you all the best and wanting you to know they are with you in spirit as you continue on.
I wrote a poem a few years ago which was after I attended a forum about Young Stroke Survivors it's called HOPE.
HOPE
Someone gave me hope today,
So please do not try to take it away.
I need hope to enter my wounded spirit.
Love, Care and Compassion to fill it.
Hope will bring me dreams to fly,
It will give me laughter and make me cry.
Hope can conquer my darkest hour.
Four letters which release enormous power.
Power to live my life, give to others and heal.
Let hope not be a dream.
Let hope be real.
The end.
So, take care and there is Strokeline which you or family or anyone close may like to call and talk to someone about what is going on. They are open from 9am-5pm Monday to Friday.
All the best.
Sue